I’m usually not told to be sweet , as a rule, growing up, we were taught to be kind to everyone. But lately, I feel like I should be saying to God, “Put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth.” I might not be speaking it, but it’s on the tip of my tongue. Sometimes we need to cry our hearts out to wash away the heartache, disappointment, or uncertainly of our life. I know in my heart of hearts that things will be okay. I don’t want to be pessimistic, but I seem to take it out on the lady in line telling her life’s story to the cashier. Well, I don’t actually take it out on her, that sounds harsh. She cannot see anything except my eyes behind the mask; maybe she’ll think I’m smiling. I want to be happy go lucky and chat with everyone in line, but I am struggling with whether to buy the chocolate candy bar staring me in the face. It is not a lack of faith that brings on the stay at home blue's or anxiety. God knows we are in tough times and maybe he is preparing us for what’s next. He knows we can only take it in small doses right now, and it’s drawing me closer to him with each hiccup in my life. The world would not be the same without us Christian women. God made us strong, emotional, compassionate, spiritual, faith-filled, and we are a force to be reckoned with. There are so many stories about women in the Bible that show their strength time and time again during hard times, uncertain times, and happy times, too. Mary, Ruth, Rachel, and Rebecca were spirit-filled leaders during biblical times and are still inspirations to us today. I can embrace my faith, accept that it’s not always going to be hunky-dory and strive to be more like Mary and less like Delilah.
I want to keep a smile on my face, think nothing but kind thoughts, and have a pep in my step, but it was time to call in some back-up. I called my girlfriend to go to dinner. "It’s always about food", I tell her. We could meet and do something else, but this just works. I will bet it’s what the women did in biblical days when they met at the Red Tent to solve the world’s problems back then.
After much-needed socialization, I feel back on my feet and little livelier. We were not meant to be alone; God says so in many Bible verses, starting with Genesis 2:18. (Leviticus 26:12/Hebrews 10:24-25/James 5:16/Galatians 6:2/Romans 12:13/Hebrews 13:16/1 Thessalonians 5:14/Romans 12:15)
Social distancing is no piece of cake. As Christian women, and as human beings, we face the challenge of not letting social distancing become emotional distancing. I, for one, am working on it from every aspect. I try to call friends often, write and send cards, and keep the food joints in business. I pray that everyone is coping and know that you are not in this alone.
Take time to take care of yourself. Be kind to yourself. It's not selfish to love yourself and make your happiness a priority. You can't pour from an empty cup. Do the things that nourish your soul, bring you joy and care enough about these things to make room for them in your Life. I talk about Bible Journaling and I think about it...now I need to DO it. Hope your month goes well, and you enjoy the books. I'm going to take time this month to fill the empty cup so I can help others when they need their cup topped off. ~ Taylor