My guy friend picked me up for a lunch date and said “You’re so sweet” . I looked at him and smiled and said, “Yesterday I was sweet and tomorrow I’ll be sweet but today I am not.” He laughed because 10 minutes earlier I sounded so discontent with the world. Nothing was going right. “Just look at these pants, they’re too tight., I’ve got to lose weight!” “I don’t like this shirt, I have nothing to wear” “What is up with my hair? It doesn’t want to cooperate today, I think I see gray hairs” “Do my eyes look lighter than normal? usually they’re dark brown, they look light brown?” (Yep! I actually said that.) So, the comment that I’m sweet was him just being a southern gentleman or he’s trying to calm the storm before taking me public. I think lately I have been feeling uneasy and a tad irritable & emotional. There is so much going on around us, and that can be scary. I ‘ve had days go by where I have been caught up in the events surrounding me. Just me. Then I get hooked on the TV and immersed in shows, news and social media. It’s not my M.O. I am not usually one to get too worried about things out of my control. I will admit that its easier to go through shaky times of with a spouse or significant other, but that’s not a reason to get my ponytail in a bunch. The good news is, God is in control and continues to bless us even when we’re not paying attention. Even if my eyes aren’t focused on him (at that moment) God never stops doing his part. He is blessing me every day, every morning when I wake up and see the beautiful day ahead for me. I know I can trust in him to get me through any situation. He knows beforehand the outcome, so why should I fear? God wants us to reach out to him in times of need.
Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Isn’t it amazing that God’s love is abundant, that we receive it when we’re not worthy or devoting our attention to it. I love gratitude journals, and I am always thankful for what I have, but sometimes like yesterday, I focus on all the things that are going wrong instead of what is going right. This virus is certainly putting us in an unfamiliar position. The unknown can be intimidating. But we, as Christians, know that we are receiving blessings, being watched over and our best interest is at heart…even when we’re not looking. I’m keeping you all in my prayers, and I pray for your safe keeping and comfort during this season in our lives. This too shall pass, it might pass like a kidney stone, but it will pass.